Thank you Mini. 
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There is a hard, dark truth that every person must prepare themselves for if they ever decide to love something, and that truth is this: however long or wonderful that love is, the last ten minutes are probably going to suck.
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I mean yeah, the moment you love something is the moment youâre predestined to have one of many bad days. Itâs part of the human condition. I have a firm belief that our time is already pre determined and itâs up to us to make the best out of the time we have especially with the ones we love. This sentiment as an adult made me live in the moment and spend more time with someone like my dad cause one day he wonât be around anymore. Because of this I go to hockey games with him and take part in his interests. Not to be the coveted favorite child but just because I love him.
We get too caught up with the struggle that is life, and yea itâs hard but sometimes itâs best to just look around more instead of being on autopilot.
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After 2 years, the stupid bitch of my mother decided to contact me. I didnât answer nor the call nor the messages. Donât care. Way to ruin the wine bottle Iâm drinking by letting me know she is still breathing.
I do hate her. To death. Iâll just try to focus on something else. We had a very horrible family picture that gave nutrition to many of my violent tendencies and plenty of my insecurities. I wanna move on from that but even something as small as this attempt at contacting me makes my blood boil.
Iâm done playing make believe that we could ever have an at least average healthy relation of mother-son.
Edit: the idiot is gonna sell the clothing business my grandma built. Not even that she could kept with care. I just said she can do whatever the hell she wants as long as it doesnât involves me. To hell with her and her money.
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Sorry to hear she ruined your wine this evening.
Try to let go and enjoy the rest of your week. Sending 
hugs.
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I just want to say, I donât really stand behind the post that I made and deleted recently talking about how I needed to be perfect and how everyone in my life talked down to me. I do genuinely experience periods of emotional turbulence like that, but then I come out of it. Living as a feeling thing is just really hard, especially when youâre naturally kind of sensitive.
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I guess there was a time when I had bouts of depression or negative emotions about myself. Iâd let it get the best of me a few times and end up doing irrational things. Then there were times when I would recognize or acknowledge how I was feeling. Then I could keep any negative emotions⌠or destruction actions in check.
I donât know if this would or could apply to you (or anyone else), but I felt I should put it out there in case it could help.
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So another year another Christmas. I donât know why I expect holidays to go well, but just some develops occurred in the process.
To start Christmas Eve my brother decided not to show up largely cause of his girlfriend, insult to injury my mother decided to prioritize a free dinner at an expensive restaurant over her family who donât get together a lot.
I donât really wanna bring up gift exchanges because it just feels wrong, so Iâll just leave it at itâs evident that not a lot of thought was put into the stuff despite prior statements suggesting otherwise and this didnât extend to just my sister but myself and the others in our immediate family. So I opted to give my gift to my sister and her husband since they have a child coming next month and could use it since I donât have utility for a gift card for a place I donât live remotely near.
For the most part the redeeming side of this year was seeing my cousins open their gifts I got them and in general my family being happy with the gifts I bought them.
When I get home Iâm gonna decompress since I work tomorrow and look at the steam sale, probably buy myself something on my wishlist if itâs on sale.
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Shit man I wouldnât even both going to the school authorities, I would just go straight to the police. I donât know if it is feasible or too late for you academically but I would recommend looking at going to another school.
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Yeah, shit, jeez, I donât know how to really handle something like this, but I would definitely tell someone with authority/power about this asap. Or even someone who could reasonably shelter you or help with this.
Especially if youâre fearing for your life or wellbeing, and youâre gonna 100% be in a situation where that could happen! Tell someone, let them know whatâs going down and where youâre gonna be!
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Iâm still in disbelief and hoping it was all a joke (wasnât probably) but keeping a safe distance and calling a cop in case of an attempt seems logical. I canât do it yet, as it is simple enough to ignore everything when nothing has happened, yet.
@TheChicken they ainât chasing me down the streets, itâs quite simpler to wait for me approach the campus.
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Sounds like a reasonable course of action to me then again I have never been threatened with a stabbing before so I have no real idea what I would do.
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The encounter was rather grumpy, but I came out unharmed in the end. Gonna stay out of their radar until Iâm out of that shithole for life.
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Got woken up by my body at 3AM telling me Iâm nauseous. Basically got nauseous out of the blue and this isnât the first time itâs happened since I experienced this back in October. Things started tapering off around 11 despite my body rejected medicine and water. Iâm doing better now, but Iâm probably gonna look into this further.
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Safe to say youâre not pregnant⌠so time to see a doctor?
I hope you feel better.
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Everything is okay. 
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I read YOU DIDNT SMASH THE MIRROR. So that means youâre still hanging in there.
I hope it gets better dude.
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Indeed, as Yacob said, you didnât smash the mirror. Thatâs definitely a good thing.
Sometimes focusing on the smaller picture helps too. At least youâre conscious that what you ate yesterday sucked, and youâre trying to take care of yourself. A smoothie is better than what you had prior.
It can be tough to keep going though. I hope you find something that makes today at least a little better for you.
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Seems a bit hypocritical to double post here but oh well.
Finding it hard to go on and feeling alone. No one in my family truly listens now and I donât have a deep relationship with them anymore. They all have their own stuff and thatâs ok. thatâs life. But it sucks being alone and feeling like youâre going no where. I turned on my Xbox last night and then turned it off again when I realized I was too tired to play it. It made me even more sad. 
I used to make art when I was this down, but I canât even get myself to do that now. And today, I wasted a day off by trying to be creative and make a portfolio piece. In the end, I couldnât come up with anything except a headache. it felt extremely defeating. I guess venting it here again helped somewhat
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You were offering some help last time and now youâre feeling down. Itâs ok to double post in that circumstance.
Sorry to hear your family communication is lacking and that youâre feeling alone. I hope you feel better tomorrow, and maybe on your next off day if you tell yourself you will do zero art some wonderful idea will pop into your head while youâre out doing other things (-;
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